Guess What.

Tommrrow is my birthday.

and im eating a blue lolli.

nuff said.

night.

I defsies deserve a cookie for this one :)))))))))))))

OMG OMG OMG!


ive officall just read the bible cover to cover :)
  been attempted many times but never finished

BUT NOW ITS HAS BEEN COMPLETED!!

ahhh!

prasie god and all his gloryy!

<3

i got a milkshake calling my name

plus my tattoo is hurting my finger...


BYE BYE FOR NOW!

Well lets just catch up on my life :)

Hey folks!

the boys are downstairs playing video games and watching naruto so i deceided to catch up since i havent blogged for what seems like forever now :)

Since i last blogged i:

Graduated high school!!! woo!
Put in my two weeks at mcdonalds and am switching over to subway!
Finally met my beautiful god daughter Sarah born may 9th!
MOved out and lived on my own for a month with my best friend Sash, until she moved in with her love :)
And then i met aaron :)

I met Aaron at work. Mm mm a McDonald boy hah. I asked him to prom because he said hes never been to his high school prom so i asked him to mine. Before prom even came around we became really really close friends. We went to the movies almost every weekend it felt like and he came to some of my school events. The first night i really knew i was falling for him was after a Forte preformance he sat through. We went to village inn the celebrate after the show me gina jaylie and him. When we went to leave his car broke down so we had fun waiting around for his dad to come rescue us. When he did he dropped me back off at my house and we didnt see eachother for a few hours. I decided to go to a party at a coworkers house. Aaron texted me and asked me to come over to his dads house so i did. I was really glad i went to a party tht night cuz i had my hair prettied up and i was wearing a cute dress. Anyway i got to his house and he was ofcourse playing a video game haha. He asked me to sit on the couch with him so we both laid down and snuggled up to one another. My heart was beating fast cuz i liked him for a little bit but i wasnt sure on my feelings towards him ahha. Anyways we were so close and so happy. Our noses were touching for like five mins and he was stroking my face so i was just waiting for him to kiss me. He brushed my hair back and whispered to me 'To be honest, ive never kissed a girl before' and i thought it was teh cutest thing ever! I kissed him and we spent the next few hours kissing and snuggling. Then i went home. I texted him how happy i was that the events happened tonight, he said he agreed. :) ON march 26th we asked eachtother out and have been dating ever since! :) 

IM completely happy with my life right now. I dont feel as emepty as i have. Ive been going to church alot more and praying. Ive been getting along with my sister and friends alot more too. Now i have someone i can love in the picture and a new job that wont drive me up a wall.

I love waiting for my future to happen. The mystery of life that god gives me is a fascinating story to watch :)

Wood Chuck <3

My name is Rachel Wood, and im addicted to you.

I am going to dedicate this blog to mi pal Gina!
(Who is qawinly dinkly my bffl. and the only love i need in my life :D haha )

I have "it will rain" by bruno mars blasting through the house,
my baggy sweats on,
tarzan in my lap
and a carton of chocolate icecream.

Its offical.
Its finished between me and BK.

Then again nothing even started.

Enough though to make me fall for him.
fall
so
hard
for him.

I told him i had a crush on him.
i guess he was fine teasing my heart.
then i told him i liked him more and more everytime we hung out.
he teased my heart even harder.

My last name my be wood.
but my heart isnt made of wood.
it has blood, a pulse, and emotion.

Sometimes i wish my heart was my butt.
big enough to love everything
and squishy enough to take a break.

I was just his drug.

his quick fix he needed
before he lived his life.


The last thing ill probaly ever hear from him agian,

'Which is fine, but we shouldnt be hanging out if you like me,
beacuase i dont want anything more anymore.'

I really wanna delete the whole convorsation ive had with him.
and his number
and his facebook.

I just cant bring myself to it.

But i am going to

finally wash my shirt i wore the last time i was with him.
His scent only makes my eyes water even more.

Cover up this hickie (gross i know)
cuz everytime i look at it i cant help but cry.

Im not going to watch films with Amanda Seifried in them again.
The memeories of watching Gone with you is to much.

Im gonna find my tec bible and see wht you wrote in it.
probadly only your name..

But right now,
im ready to get cozy on the couch
watch titanic, or breaking dawn, or the notebook.
any movie that shows TRUE love.

Them im gonna wait till gina gets off work.
and burn some shit.

-WoodChuck </3

I thought you were going to be my everything.

i love  like you.

I dont blog enough...

I wish i blogged more. I wish i didnt have to work weird hours to try and get money. I wish i was one of the lucky kids who know what its like to be spoiled rotten by parents who just give them stuff, and not a teanager who pays for college, for phone, 60$ a week for gas, and is on the verge of being kicked out. I know its all a learning experiance and it'll pay off in the end but it still bugs me...working..ew. :P

I wish i blogged more. So people whouldnt think i was a nutty slut. Talking about a diffrent 'him' everyblog. Well im not a slut, or a nut. I usally just have to blog about when i first hang out with a special 'him', and when things crumble with a special 'him'.

I wish i blogged more. So i could tell you how badly i dislike papillion at times. I miss the town of 2000. If it werent for Gina, idk what i would ever do with myself. I hate this school. I hate all the homework and the pressure to be over succsessful. I hate the teachers who think they know everything about you just by looking at you. Sorry teach im not just some pathetic fat girl who eatts 5 chocolate cakes on her friday nights. I hate how theres so much to do but everything cost so much do re mi. I hate how its changed me.

I wish i blogged more. So hopefully someone could help me with my relationship wth god. The fire is dwindling down faasst. I find myself not wanting to go to church anymore or youthgroup or participate in adventures with my group. I love god, and i belive, but why is my heart aching waayy to much for him.

I wish i blogged more. So this next story wouldnt sound so crazy. Last night i went to go see a movie with BK. We saw the movie Gone cuz he swore it would be fantastic. haha its sucked maaajorly. He held my hand through the entire movie and sneaked a few kisses here and there. Afterwords we left and hung around for a few more hours. The night all together was fantastic. I have very strong feelings for him. Whatever feelings he had for me are long gone now.
He lives in lincoln. I live in omaha. Quite a drive. HE was nice enough to meet me in omaha and hang out here. At the end of the night i gave him directions to get back home and i was hoping all would be good. But sadly it wasnt. At 1:14 am he calls me because he lost in some other town. I offer to help him out but instead he yells and hangs up. He then calls again at 1:20 yelling at me with the f bomb every other word. I rush to my computer to see if i could google map anything but instead he just hangs up. I begin to cry.
The last time i ever heard from him and probadly will ever hear from him again was at 1:21 this morning. He sent me a two worded text that hit me like a ton of bricks.
"Fuck you."
Thats wen the tears really began to fall. Im sorry im sorry im sorry! i never wanted any of this to happen! AT ALL! you wanted to see me i wanted to see you and we arranged for it to happen. Im sorry it hasppened.
I couldnt sleep at all last night. Even if i magnaged ten minutes of sleep i shook awake becasue i was so worried about you. I still am. I wanna know if you made it home. Im scared spitliss right now. All i wanna do is curl up and listen to skrillex and smells the rest of your linger smell that still hold onto my shirt. Im so worried! i cant stand this torture anymore! How many times do i have to text you until you can finally text me back and say your ok!? Please help me out! My eyes hurt from crying and i just want a signal to know your ok....
i just want something from you.
since you probadly will never speak to me again.


I wish i blogged more. So someone, just someone would tell me everything will be ok.

-Rachel

My friends were right...

How could something i thought was going sooo great
crumble?
just
like
that.

Ok i know im a little weird, and im not the pretty blonde cheerleader everybody wants to get with,
but you saw past that,
you liked me for me
rachel wood! profess weirdo!

Saturday night was fantastic!
Hands down one of the greatest nights of my life
thanks to you :)
I was hoping you feel the same way,
you said you did
but now you keep going back.

idk what to think anymore.

plans were set for valentines day..
i was super excited!
had the money
was gonna do my hurrr all nice
and i was gonna look all fancy for ya

but you had to "Work"

i still had fun with gina at VI!
*single girl swaag night!*

Valentines day came and went

Wednesday was a bowling party with my moms work
i was doing super great!
i wanted to say hi so i sent you a text saying
'gawd i suck at bowling'

to which you replied with something about taking a girl bowling last night.

dude remeber wat last night was....?

valentines day.

didnt you have to work?

no? oh you just wanted to rip my heart out and tear it in a million peices throwing them on the ground and torching them watching my feelings for you go up into flames!?!?!

whatever.
my motivation for starting something is gone.
ive lost it all.
I feel abused and used,
because of you.

Im obssesed with the thought of you
and the pain just grows
how could you do this to me?
there was never enough in the world  that u could give to you huh?

Ok im done being a little girl.
even tho im gonna go cry
but my heart hurts...
i legitly thought you meant it.

guys just let there dick do there talking.

-WoodChuck


"I wish i could have quit you, i wish i never met you, and told you that i loved you everytime i f*cked you...the future we both drew and all the shit we've  been through, obsseed with the thought of you and the pain just grew and grew..how could you do this to me?"

Blondes do have more fun :)

Well heeelllooo Bloggity bloogger!
dyed my hairs blonde
got a monroe peircing
food, fun, and friends
check check check!
awesome friday night!

Wakity up at 10
do dishes, clean room
dinner and shopping with mom
convince her to let me stay at sashs
get gina to come to ashland with me
arrive to ashalnd
get together
and it all felt right :)
met up with an old crushidy crush
met at tec 2 years ago..
had an absoolluuttlllyy woooooonderful night!
he left
boo hoo :(
me gina jelly and sash head for dennys
biscuts and gravy hashbrowns and pancake ballsa
all at three in the morning mind you
head home
crash on sashs floor
absolutly wonderfully amazing saturday night :)))))

sunday's are always lame.
besides church. i like church.
nothing but homework and work.

omg i miss him..
why does he have to live an houurr away!

oohhhwweellll.

night~!
Woodchuck.





footer for sashums:
i still feel reaally bad..next time i get paid we'll go to walmart and ill by you a new set.
i feel god awful and kinda disgusted too about it :/
my bad. will NEVER happen again :) <3

i should make a movie outta my highschool akwardness...

Hello again!
 friecken hallways...im sick and tired of you..
and school..
and boys..
who tease with your mind and soul.

literally ran into him today.

turn a cornor and
BOOM!

oh but you werent alone

oh no no no

some girl was linked to your hand
holding onto dear life
like she was falling over a cliff
and you were her hero...

him: (outta shock of hitting someone) oh sorry...oh hai rach...(akward turtle)
myself: hello good sir...goodbye good sir.

begin walking away.

him: wait rach!

continue walking...hold tears..

the bathroom stall has never felt more like home...

idk why i got so worked up about it..
we never really talked about becoming a thing..
i guess assumptions took over.

i wish he would quit texting me
idc if ur with someone or not

its just a sign that things shouldnt happen anymore
with you and me
its just time i say my last goodbye i guess.

siiggggghhhhhhh

i swear im living in onneee biigg movie.

WoodChuck.

Akward turtle...

I hate the hallways at school for two reasons...one
with over 1,600 students
its almost impossible not to run into someone you know..
sometimes its good
but sometimes it annoys me
like alex...he can trip down the stiars..fall into some acid...start on fire..and take a million bullets in his chest..
nbd.

anyway,

i keep running into you!

your makng my head spin,
my heart race
my palms sweat

(thank god you dont always do hand shakes.....)

and two...MAJOR AWKWARD TURTLE-NESS-NESS-NESS-NESS-NESS!

Myself: Howdy.
Him: Hey (Akward hand going through hand move)

idk if thats good or bad.

Myself: What class you going too?
Him: Choir...you? (hands in pocket)

Myself: Hell...aka gym...with your sister :)
Him: Thats fun.

Myself: Yup...
Him: yup...

Myself: ....
Him: ....

Myself: Well i best get to class.
Him: Yeah me too

Myself: Kk peace

I leave...
heartbroken
sad...

bye bye sir...

*first lunch block*

Myself: Long time no see (ha)
Him: (ha) yeah, going to lunch?

Myself: I dont really have a lunch, i go to college...
Him: Right right forgot..i would have enjoyed a new table person.

Myself: ^.^ haha sorry..
Him: Its ok...so friday huh...

Myself: Yeah (Akward hair rubbing thing) Twas fun..(shoulder shrug)
Him: Yeah...

Myself: Yup...
Him: yuppers...

Myself: well i better goo...
Him: Yeah sorry for keeping you.

*handshake*
(shit sweaty palm nation..)

^not a grand sign....

oh well next friday me him and his sis are hanging...

well mainly me and her plooting to scarre the shit outta him ;)


my head hurts.
i cant like this kid.
and he cant like me.
its impossible

(for reasons i dont feel like sharing...)

and weird...

oh well...
 night world.


WoodChuck

Ive been waiting for this night for a long time...

Wow blogger long time no see :P

Last night...last night was quite magical :)
but its messing with my most inner thoughts and my poor little heart.
constiant butterflys keep fluttering in my tummy beacuase i know your right next door.
the perfect romantic movie...
open your window and there you are..
across the lawn in your house staring back at me with you beautiful brown eyes
making my heart flutter and my stomach in joy <3

Pandra you too are quite magical!
picking songs to match my mood :)

Scary movies are grand...especially with a person you really really really like for the longest time but could never ever tell them. :)))))
A scary green faced zombie appered, i screamed and my hand feel into yours.
you didnt pull away...
our fingers slowly interlaced
and my heart thumped rappidly.
ive been wishing for this moment for so long.
Our friend got scared and left to the room to go catch some z's
i couldnt bear not seeing the end of the movie
or
letting
you
go.

You wrapped your arms around me
my head rested on your shoulder
you held me tighter
quick pinch to see if i was dreaming...

i wasnt <3

i snagged a quick peek in your eyes..
"you look like bruno mars from this angle.."
he smiled and brushed my hair from my face
i smiled away and watched blood and guts splatter across the screen..

oh noo i feel it building
its coming out right now and i cant stop it..
i raise my hand

and sneeze :P

he flinched when i borught my hand back down
"Sorry!"
he laughed.
"Thats my tickle spot."

poke.
tickle spot.
poke poke.
he found my tickle spot.
poke poke poke
poke poke
poke
poke poke

GUNSHOT!

dead zombie.
soft breathe in my ear.
i look up right into his eyes.

quick smile flashes on his face
time stops
my neighbor
my classmate
my bestfriends brother
my secret crush..

presses his lips to mine.

My head spins
my heart thumps
my stomach explodes
he pulls away.
"Sorry"

"Dont be"

Lips found mine again.

What will it take to make or break these feelings?
Only time i guess..
but now i know..
he feels the same way <3

Though
it may seem like a stretch
and it's thoughts like this that catch my troubled head
but when your away im missing you..

time for a cheesey middle school ending

AG+RW=<3

haha night world.

WoodChuck

Movies get me thinking ya know!?

Haha i dont know if this is from a directors stand point but idk.
If i havent posted this yet, Im in Community college working on a two year film degree before im off for 6 years at film school. So last semester we all made about three movies each in my moving inmage lab, and at the end of the semester we traded DVD's with some people around the class. Today after cleaning my car and my room i was bored so i poped in some dvds and have been watching them all day. ONe really stuck out to me, it was made by an amazing friend i grew close to in that class and her peice is called "To my dearest daughter.." Its about 15 minutes long but ill just give you a jist of a summary here:

Ever since the  girl was little she was battling a heart condition. Her mom had already passed so she was left alone with her dad.One day when 11 the girl asked her daddy, "What are you going to get me for my 15th birthday?" The father replied, "There is much time left." When the girl was 14 she fainted and was rushed to the hospital. The doctor came out and told her dad her heart was getting worse and worse and she may not live to be 15. When she was lying in the hosptial bed she said "Daddy,. have they told you im going to die yet?" The father replied yes as he left weeping. She said "How can you be sure." He turned around from the door and said "I know." She turns 15 when she is recovering and comes home to find a letter on her bet. It says "My Dearest Daughter, if you are reading this it means all went well as I told you. One day you asked me what I was giving you for your 15th birthday, I didn't know then but now my preasent to you is a MY HEART." Her father donated his heart.

And as i sat weeping as the credits rolled in, i couldnt help thinking, life is gods greatest gift he could ever give.

So why is noone happy with thier life anymore? Im not saying this in a mean sorta way just a ,
"I dont have the new iphone my life sucks."
"I wish i had a girlfriend/boyfriend so my life would be complete.."
"If my mom doesnt buy me this new car i may shoot myself."
"I swear if my boyfriend/girlfriend is cheating on me i may cut myself."

why?

idk.

just a thought.

-WoodChuck :D

Tattoo's :D

Haha i dont really know what to blog about so im gonna blog about my tattoo's :D
i like this blog thing btw.
lawl.

OK FIRST ONE:

mustche :{D NOt a huge meaning behind it but its still so fun and it makes people laughed :D

TWO BIBLE VERSE:
Kendra drew it for me on paper, me and tattoo guy made rough outline on computer...going on calf.

THREE QUOTE TATTOO:

I really liek this quote. means alot to me ...and him ;)

FOURTH TATTOO FOR GODBABY

best friend is appointing me for god mother :) THe big eart is mommy, little heart  is baby, and the cross is me and jesus holding it all together :)

LASTONE:
for now anyways...i met an amazing guy five years ago but sadly he moved away for the navy, we had a great realationship, and still do so when we get back together agian after he gets back from the navy were going to get "Love never fails" on our ankles :)

just a fun post for the night :) hope everyone is having a good night nd may your tommrow be filled with much joy :D

-Woodchuck :)

Thank you for filling my head with lies...at least i got a real friend back..

"Hate,
Rage,
Lies,
I'm done with it.
I've let you fill my head with this shit,
All because I'm living my dreams,
And I never was taught to quit.."

Thank you sashums for showing me this song...came in handy from what i learned today.

Were you jelouse of our friendship? Did you think he was changing me? Stealing me from you? well..
you
were
wrong.

He was the ONE person i have right now who knows what its like coming from broken relationships, broken familes, escaping reality with a knife...

and you tried taking him from me!

"Your fiction trash talking,Is done,
Out of hate.."

I havent been negleting you...we used to hang out everyother day before you graduate...you know i love you girl so why did you wanna ruin that!?

Him and I are friends now..after arguing over who said wat and why...and it all
leaded back
to
you.

"Everything you said,
It was a lie..."

You told me he said one thing towards me, you told him i said something towards him...
REALITY CHECK!
He doesnt use me,
and ive never EVER had romantice relationships with him.
So please dont feed us bullshit..

you almost ruined what i had with him.

Sorry girl, you ruined what i had with you...
next time please dont ruin good realtionships other people have, because the realtionships you have suck.

"I am writing this for,
Anyone who can relate.
Whose ever been hurt,
By the things that people say.
I stand strong,
I don't let anything get in my way,
I'm not going anywhere,
Maybe you'll see that one day.
If I don't have anything,
And I'm left with nothing,
At least I still have my faith,
That's all I need,
To embrace..."

Im not saying i wont be there for you when you have troubles, but just realize, were noww only
two people in a world of billion..
friends? maybe one day agian..
but as of now..
he's my only friend.

-Woodchuck.

Random thought :)

Its very pretty outside today :)
I drove to metro today with sun roof open and the ac on haha.

this is gonna be a long one folks...

I think the only good part about my day was waking up at 8, an dfinally getting my ukulele! BUt even getting my ukulele was a fun expireance. Stupid UPS had to have a sig or watever so i had to go get it, got lost for about an hour in the scary parts of town, and then i finally got it two mins before they closed. siggh oh well i got it!

You know wat i dislike some times...assumptions and hypocrites. Both of which are the highest quailty my parents share. :) hmm..no need to share too much of my persaonl life ;)

Next people...please take a good look at who you may think is your best friend. I moved out of ashland two years ago and hear i am finding out my 'friends' are talking smack about me. Im trying not to let it bug me..but if im in town agian and u come to say hi to me..if i dont say hi, please walk away cuz you broke a very sacred bond i once shared with you. im no gonna start drama on blogger cuz thats kinda odd, and im not gonna say 'im gonna punch yo face' no im just saying..i had fun being ur friend..apologies wont be neccssary cuz when u say those kinds of things about me..i dont rele liek it and i cant trust u anymore.

Now onto the subject of 'him' haha.
Were still friends. He actually came to me and apoligized when i told him wats up. :) thats made me realize i cant break a bond we have like this. hes one of 5 people i can fully trust with my life. I love this kid. But now we dont have the same lunch which is a bummer..but oh well...idk.

haha well im sore from the day...tired too.

i work from 8-11 tommorw night if any wants to stop by for some food and smiles :)

Night guys :)

-WoodChuck :D<3

Script Wrting class..fun...no...tired.

Good afternoon.
I am blogging from my script writing class instead of doing my work.
i really have to pee.
and my ukulele isnt hear yet...:(
o well.
School was good todat..new schedule was kinda a poophead.
i hate pe...i hate it...HATE IT!
He came and talked to me today at lunch.
tried to ignor but i couldnt..
hes my besstt fruund
idk how to stop...
bleh.
ok im gonna work on my script now...
But first i need to descibe my main character..
his name is Emmett Brown
what do ya think?
 

Emmett Brown is a film student at Full Sail University.  He is Mr. Personality on campus, always with a group of people. He’s 6’3, athletic built from years of playing soccer, and surfing, his shaggy brow hair covers his forehead and a bit of his blue eyes that are framed with black square glasses, and he always has a video camera in his hand. Big or small he carries on around to blog his daily life. He usually found with a tight group of friends consisting of Alex Stanley, Sam Weaver, Olivia Brown (Emmett’s sister), Dean Birbach, and Lisa Dawson. Emmett plus his six friends all share a four bedroom house in downtown Winter Park, Florida. They are often causing trouble by getting into things they shouldn't be like drugs, alcohol, and lots of parties. Other than partying and causing mischief, Emmett likes playing soccer and surfing with Sam, Gaming with Alex and Dean, picking on his little sister Olivia, and spending quality time with his girlfriend Lisa. Emmett is studying to become a film maker, so in his free time he documents his life through his mini camcorder he carries everywhere with him. Emmett grew up wealthy. His mom was the Mayor of Florida, and his dad was a software maker, and when Emmett was born 24 years ago his dad invented something that made him millions of dollars. Emmett himself doesn't have a job. He drives a yellow Jeep usually with the sides off in the hot Florida heat. Emmett is a care free adult who only worries about himself and how he can become a famous director that lives in luxury in Hollywood.

-Woodchuck :D

Age is but a number.

i love to shine:D
haha my nails match my phone case lawl.
random post. dreading tommorw...school starts back upp..
im really nervous to see him.
are we still friends?
are we enemy's now?
idk. i wish i could know.
my heart is pounding just thinking about seeing you before first hour tommorw..\
and sitting next to you in pep band on friday..
dude you know i love you...but YOU DUN GOOFED!
gah i so wanna be your friend..
you held my hand as i cried, and helped me breathe after we laughed so hard we chocked..
i can never tell with you.
maybe you need to grow up a bit...
i know i do.

-Woodchuck <3

Maybe I should blog a little better..haha

So i guess i should have a formal introduction blog..ha
My name is Rachel Wood. im sorta a big jesus freak, but sometimes like to hide it. idk why, and i really shouldnt but i do, and i need to change that :P I am not too big of a fan of capitilization so sometimes i 'forget' to do it. Two years ago i was taken from my haven of ashland nebraska and thrown into the world of fake tanned, big boobed, blonde haird beotchs, and tools of the male varity in the big ole town of Papillion. Its fairly dece here made some good couple of friends :) I am a lovley crew member working my butt off at mcdonlads :) I have an amazing sister who s with me thick and thin..becasue i dont have a strong relationship with my parents..at.all. Im gonna be honest with you, im pretty sure papillion has changed me mucho. I care waaaayyy more about what i look like now, i get into things i shouldnt, and overall thats turned me into somekinda cookie cutter shaped monster. Meh idk how to put..but my life has changed some since moving here haha. I enjoy film. Im already in college (while im in highschool yes..my new school is kinda badass when it comes to this stuff;)) taking classes for film and audio. Gonna be a big shot one day so remeber my name! haha. Idk what else to say..just blogging away my inner most thoughts as my fingers freeze and my stomach growls :D so imma gonna go...i need to pee and im feeling like a venti carmel frappicion with extra whip and salt!

peace,love,and woodie:)

Yo, yo YO! Rachel Wood in da house boiiii! :D

Tee hee, hey yall.
trying this whole bloggity thing..kinda likeing it so far!
i dont really know what to say besides.....BIG TURTLE PURPLE APE MONKEY BUTT!
get used to it.
i find myself not to be sane at times, but im not a COMPLETE nut case that everyone runs in fear and hides from. haha.
yea well since im new im ver ver lonley...so if you have a blog, follow me, if your bffffff has a blog hey have them follow as well!
ok well im bored...
so ttyl homeslieces!


peace,love,and woodie :)